Jie,
Mummy is in KPJ hospital now waiting to do a blood test for dengue fever. I have been having fever since Sunday, it's my 4th day today. When I was registering at the outpatient registration counter, I saw a notice on 'priority' zone. The word 'red zone' caught my attention and brought back memories of 3 Dec 2011. I recalled how I brought you to the hospital. I recalled how you were rushed in and I was asked if they should resuscitate you. I responded no..I said, my child is a special child, we should let her go. I knew there won't be any chance as you have stopped breathing for a long time.
Last night, I was thinking so badly about you..I missed you terribly.
Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
Sunday, 11 August 2013
My 5 day holiday is ending soon
Jie,
Tomorrow would be my last day of a 5 day holiday. I had planned for a lot to be done these 5 days but ended up only with these
Day 1:
Spring cleaning the house
Sorting yours and Charlene's old clothing and labeling them properly
Cooked dinner for mama, ah kong, ah ku & ah Kim
Day 2:
Trip to PD
Day 3:
Spent a whole day at mama's house & celebrated mummy's birthday
Browsed your old pictures
Day 4:
Today was spent taking care of Charlene who was down with fever.
Cooked dinner for mama, ah kong & popo
Day 5:
I guess would be the same as Day 4
I was thinking of you so badly when I sorted your clothings. Your tiny shoes, your jumpers..I smelled each and everyone of them as if they were you. Then when Charlene asked to see your photographs, I could stop crying when I saw your pictures. I missed you so badly. Charlene caught me crying and asked why. Being innocent she said "Oh..you missed Charmaine jie jie ah". I could only tell her yes I do. I have to tell you that you have an amazing sister who is able to console mummy and share my grief. She said "I also miss Charmaine jie jie" & "You don't cry, I saying you"...
Mummy thanked God for sending Charlene to me. Her words are so comforting and encouraging. I knew from then on that she has grown up and mummy will be sharing a lot more of your stories with her. She's going to know and love you more.
Till I write again, good night...I love you.
Tomorrow would be my last day of a 5 day holiday. I had planned for a lot to be done these 5 days but ended up only with these
Day 1:
Spring cleaning the house
Sorting yours and Charlene's old clothing and labeling them properly
Cooked dinner for mama, ah kong, ah ku & ah Kim
Day 2:
Trip to PD
Day 3:
Spent a whole day at mama's house & celebrated mummy's birthday
Browsed your old pictures
Day 4:
Today was spent taking care of Charlene who was down with fever.
Cooked dinner for mama, ah kong & popo
Day 5:
I guess would be the same as Day 4
I was thinking of you so badly when I sorted your clothings. Your tiny shoes, your jumpers..I smelled each and everyone of them as if they were you. Then when Charlene asked to see your photographs, I could stop crying when I saw your pictures. I missed you so badly. Charlene caught me crying and asked why. Being innocent she said "Oh..you missed Charmaine jie jie ah". I could only tell her yes I do. I have to tell you that you have an amazing sister who is able to console mummy and share my grief. She said "I also miss Charmaine jie jie" & "You don't cry, I saying you"...
Mummy thanked God for sending Charlene to me. Her words are so comforting and encouraging. I knew from then on that she has grown up and mummy will be sharing a lot more of your stories with her. She's going to know and love you more.
Till I write again, good night...I love you.
Saturday, 10 August 2013
Mummy's Birthday
Jie,
It's mummy's birthday today. I miss you. Wondering how today would be if you are still around. Charlene surprised me this morning with a playdoh cake and wished mummy 'Happy Birthday'. Where ever you are, I am very sure you would be wishing me too. I know you would. It's been more than one and a half years since you left. My heart still aches and I still cry when I think of you. Mummy miss you so much and I promise you that I shall remember you always. I love you my precious Charmaine, my precious Lim Li En, my precious kache, my precious baby....
It's mummy's birthday today. I miss you. Wondering how today would be if you are still around. Charlene surprised me this morning with a playdoh cake and wished mummy 'Happy Birthday'. Where ever you are, I am very sure you would be wishing me too. I know you would. It's been more than one and a half years since you left. My heart still aches and I still cry when I think of you. Mummy miss you so much and I promise you that I shall remember you always. I love you my precious Charmaine, my precious Lim Li En, my precious kache, my precious baby....
Saturday, 13 April 2013
Jie, mummy miss you
I've been missing you a lot for the past few weeks. I was very sure that I had you in my dreams a few weeks ago. And..I remember so clearly that you asked for panties when I visit you for the all soul's day prayers. That week, I was emotional. I just couldn't stop crying when I went to buy the panties. I miss you.....
Saturday, 16 February 2013
Jie, Gong Xi Fa Cai
Jie,
It's been some time since mummy came to your blog. I have been very busy with the new year preparation & then all the cooking during the new year. This year around, I braved myself to celebrate the new year. There were lots of shopping with ah ma & ah kong & of course mei mei too...
Of late, I find myself talking & mingling more often with children your age. I always remind myself that if you are still around, you would be like them. First, Xin Yen jie jie, then Chloe mei mei....how I wish you are like them.
It's our 2nd CNY without you. I hope you do love the Mickey & Minnie Ang Pow I left at the memorial park.. Happy Chinese New Year my darling...
It's been some time since mummy came to your blog. I have been very busy with the new year preparation & then all the cooking during the new year. This year around, I braved myself to celebrate the new year. There were lots of shopping with ah ma & ah kong & of course mei mei too...
Of late, I find myself talking & mingling more often with children your age. I always remind myself that if you are still around, you would be like them. First, Xin Yen jie jie, then Chloe mei mei....how I wish you are like them.
It's our 2nd CNY without you. I hope you do love the Mickey & Minnie Ang Pow I left at the memorial park.. Happy Chinese New Year my darling...
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
Happy New Year 2013
Jie,
It's 1 Jan 2013 today. We have not done mush to usher the new year, just wishing everyone the best of health. If you were still with us, on the very last few days of the year, I would be silently praying for you to live on to see the new year.
In 2010, we welcomed the new year at our condo in KL. I could still remember when the clock struck 12, we took pictures with you & congratulated you for moving on to a new year.
Well, last night I whispered into Charlene's year and wished her Happy New Year & May You Be Blessed With Great Health Throughout The Year.
I wonder how would it be if you were with us last night....
It's 1 Jan 2013 today. We have not done mush to usher the new year, just wishing everyone the best of health. If you were still with us, on the very last few days of the year, I would be silently praying for you to live on to see the new year.
In 2010, we welcomed the new year at our condo in KL. I could still remember when the clock struck 12, we took pictures with you & congratulated you for moving on to a new year.
Well, last night I whispered into Charlene's year and wished her Happy New Year & May You Be Blessed With Great Health Throughout The Year.
I wonder how would it be if you were with us last night....
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